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just a lil somthin' somthin' i wrote....heh...
as i breathe in the summer air,
i can see your face, i can picture you here
so many nights we'd sit by the fire
just like the flames, id burn with desire
holding hands, talking all night...
when i was with you everything felt right
we'd leave everyone behind and sneak away
so we could be alone to cuddle and play
laying beside you i felt so complete
you were a bad habit i couldn't beat
the look in your eyes always made me helpless,
and i could never resist the taste of your kiss
how could someone so special break my heart?
we had it all right from the start.
now what we had, is in the past
i thought for sure our relationship would last
but still if anyone asks 'have you been in love, and with who?'
i will always reply with i was in love with you....
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i'm an early 90s music whore.weird i know. i like love it.
anways... rick was just here, pretty nice to see him. me and autumn made him watch achia: http://www.ebaumsworld.com/aicha.html he thought it was awsome..then again who doesnt think its awsome? that kid is frigin RETARTED. lovesss it.
yaaaaaaay contender comes on soon! im gonna be sad when the finale is over cuz i really love that show and all the guys on it :(. blaaaaah.
my voice is officialy gone..and when i can make a sound i sound like a moose or something. wicked gay. i hope i get better soon cuz i hate being sick or having allergies...w/e it is. ive been waking up every morning like a mess..i just wanna die cuz i hate dealing with being so sick. gay.
well thats all for now. bye lovies. <3
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[15 May 2005|06:35pm] |
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hmmmm. so yea im kinda bored..just thinkin about stuff. Liiiike, there's someone i really miss...in a way and in a way i dont miss him, its kinda weird but whatever. its gonna be weird with him not around this summer cuz hes been at my house basically all summer for the past few summers. maybe he'll come around..who knows.
I should prolly just move on and stop dwelling on the past, but its hard to just forget when its something that meant something to you. anyway...
im completely hooked on the show 'the contender' peter is from RI and hes a really good fighter, but my fave was joey... but he got his ass kicked now hes off the show lol.
well thats enough for now, im out. <3
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[13 May 2005|12:47pm] |
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Heeeey im finally back for good now! gosh ok. my intetrnet like wouldnt work then my whole comp broke. now im back with a new comp and aol so i will be updating like alot more now so leave me a comment if ya wanna! :)
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God, im so sick...this sucks. i must have blown my nose like 320974075 times today. cute isnt it?
well anyway, my brother finally broke up with his fiance. And he brought the new girlfriend over today to meet the family. ugh shes fucking gorgeous. im jealous. she seriously looks like a supermodel...and shes the same age as me. shes like 5'11 120 pounds long blonde hair, blue eyes...dresses good. and has a brand fucking new jetta,whatever.
i could go for watching some napoleon dynamite...i love that movie, im pretty much obsessed with it. 'well can you bring me my chastick...but my lips hurt REAL BAD' haha.loves it.
i realy hope i feel better by tomrow cuz i need to go get my eyebrows done and i wanna just get outta the house cuz ive been in bed for like days.
well this is all for now. byebye<3
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hmmm... my internet is working for once... whooofuckinghoo. anways, im wicked tired right now but ah well. so yea.
tonite was cool i was online then my friend nikki who i havent chilled with since like 9th grade was like.. wanna chill yo so i was like yea yo. so we went to dunkin dounts and my iced cappucino was gross then to the mall and had a ghetto fabulous time. there was like hardly no hott guys out i was like wtf.
so me, her and dineen were boy shopping and this 'cool' wigger came right up to my ear and was like 'heeeeeey' in this soft what he thought was hott i guess voice. it kinda freaked me out actually, but he was hott under all his gangster gear. awsome.
tomorow i should be getting some new clothes, lets hope.
im obsessed with the song 'against all odds' by mariah carey. im weird. and im in a weird mood. i feel like i just dropped acid, or something like it. dangerous.
im out negros and nergo-etts. <3 ~Jess
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[16 Feb 2005|04:48pm] |
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ok so i havent updated this in like forever.
winter is so fucking boring seriously i wish it was summer. stupid rhode island weather sucks. anywayssss nothing too exciting has been goin on just that i like got a new dog a few months ago and shes wicked cute n i love her.
and joe and ryan still dont leave me alone its seriously the most annoying shitt ever. you chill with people and all of a sudden they think they have a chance with you. i need to stop being so nice cuz obviuosly i give people the wrong impression. gaaaaaaay.
what else hmMmM so im definitly missing last summer and all the usuals. nothing will be the same..at leats not this summer. ryan is like in iraq and my brother moved out and johnny...who knows whats up his ass and joe totaly turned weird so i dunno whats gonna happen this year. it'll prolly turn into me and autumn in the pool all day everyday. whatfuckingfun.
well this was all pretty pointless but yea thats all for now. xoxo <3 jess
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[18 Aug 2004|05:05pm] |
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Fuck. I hope u die mother fucker i fucking hate you so fucking much uuuuugggggghhhhhhhhhh. Seriously i dont do any fucking thing to deserve to be treated like this. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i just love being fucking used by fucking poor ass scumbags. Thats ok u got what u wanted i hope ur happy asshole. im happy for you and your NEW girlfriend. I hope u get her pregnant and she gives birth to the most fucked up retarted nigger child.
Yea and how bout u find a REAL job and stop working for my brother too cuz i fucking hate you and i dont know how he can stand being around u all day. maybe you'll fall off a ladder and break ur legs and become paralyzed for the rest of ur fucking pathetic life. I doubt the new g/f will wanna fuck your crippled ass.
fucking dumb fuck who the fuck do u think u are?
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woops in my last post i put the wrong gj name ha its (bacardixblonde) my b
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Havent updated this in a bit...i like greatestjournal better. Sooo if u have a gj go on ova and add me (blondexbacardi)
anyway im sun burnt like crazy. in serious pain. my face is swolen. i could go on forever...
Im still really freaked out that i dreamt that i murdered some guy that works @ BK...and it wasnt just like a killing...i like slaughtered this guy and left his bloody remains on the counter where u pay, and i didnt even regret it, i was only worried about myself and that id get caught....thats fucked up.
If any1 is like a dream expert and knows the meaning behind dreams...please tell me why i would dream such a horrible thing lol.
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[29 Jul 2004|12:08am] |
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Hey guys...i have a new GJ...the name is bacardixblonde add me if you have one too!! or reply to this with ur gj name! <333
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[26 Jul 2004|11:49pm] |
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These lyrics explain how im feelin:
"You’re such a secret
Misty eyed and shady
Baby, how you hold the key
Oh, you’re like a candle
Your flame slowly fadin’
Burnin’ out and burnin’ me
Can’t you see
Just tryin’ to say to you.."
Yea so idk why i stress on this kid so much, I really dont. I just wish i knew what was goin on. I havent talked to him in like a week, which is wicked sketch. I wish i didnt get so worked up over him. He's like all i think about, when im home, out,with friends,b4 bed,when i get up,when i eat,when i shower...like hes ALWAYS on my mind. Why can't i just not be such a 12 year old and ask him whats up? Im wicked gay. ugh i wish i could explain to sum1 whats goin on...but *the* only person i trust is my mom and im not about to tell her all the things we do, which is why im so attached. Guess i gotta figure this out on my own...no thanks to him...
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[24 Jul 2004|12:17am] |
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My nite was pretty good. Had sum chinese for dinner, then ryan came over :). Rick n ryan were in the backyard drinkin blue bacardi zombies, so i went out to get in on the action. Next thing u know rick starts lightin up. So, we all smoked a J and continued to get ridicliously stoned+drunk.
After we were done smokin, we went in my room and watched jeepers creepers 2, and then went in the kitchen for some serious grubbin. (Man im still kinda high) i hate that everything is funny after i smoke hahaha.
Anyway after we ate the whole house ryan puked..heh...he was waaaay gone even b4 he got here, and my rick fell asleep on my floor...which he is still in here.
my mom like broke her ankle and cant clean or anything so im the nigger.
K holmes im o.u.t. peaceee
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[21 Jul 2004|09:36pm] |
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sitin here kinda bored...remembering the good ol high school parties. I miss the bullshitt we used to do..like ducktaping dan to the post in the basement and throwing cheese balls at him. And the time i got thrown in the closet with the remote controlled rat. and all the truth or dare jenga. My 16th birthday party with giacomo stripping 0:-D. and how somtimes the parties would be crazy and other times we would all chill in the dark with music with candels lit...w/e the case, we always had a good time+ plenty of memories.
I miss how everyone used to get along and how close we all were. Now high school's over and no1 really keeps in touch anymore. Everything seemd so fun but sort of innocent. Now i party with my brother and his friends and its all about drinking and weed and everyone hookin up (which is cool but not how i used to party). It kinda sucks that people grow apart and start getting into different things and how fast people change.
Personally i think i havent changed, however i have done things now that i would have never done jr year in high school. I guess its all part of growing up, right?
anyway this is a pointless post really, i just felt like typin what was on my mind.
Peace out <3333
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[20 Jul 2004|12:31am] |
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Hmm..just got off the phone with Jamie and Dequan...lmao their so fuckin funny i was like crackin up the whole time. heh so anyway i watched jeepers creepers2 tonite and it was pretty good but i liked the first one better... it was scarier.
So i've been thinkin about somthin alot lately ( i know i know..ME actually thinking lol) naa but like i hate having like 'mixed' feelings for a guy. One minute everything seems to be *perfect* and the next minute things seem like they couldnt be worse. ggrrr this is hard to explain. There's many reasons i 'like' this certin kid and even more reasons why i can't stop...too many things have happened between us for me to NOT have feelings for him. But then theres things that really piss me off and make me not HATE him but i just get aggrivated with him.I just wish i could tell him how i feel, because it might make me feel better. I always wonder how he feels about me, and if he feels the same way i do. I guess i'll never know, because im not about to come out and be like...ok whats the deal with you anyway...lol ya know? ugh whatever...
Now that that's all out i guess im done dwelling on it for now. Theres only one person that could make it all better...*AnDreW McmaHon*..enough said...<3333
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[17 Jul 2004|04:04pm] |
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hmm so i havnt updated in a lil while so i thought it was about time too lol. On sunday i went to Mass. with autumn, my bro and joey (the rents were already up there) and joe got this like new conversion van so we rode up in that. Man they are so retarted but its wicked funny. SO basically me n autumn were bored all day but we found this thing called a chocloate willie (yes it is a chocolate penis lmao) so we bought it. well, we were about to leave and my bro's like hold up i gotta piss, he comes back to the van and hes leaning in the bakseat and hes like has anyone seen my soda..and hes like stickin his "frontal package" in the air and all of a sudden..WHOAAA..I SEE A DICK!!! me and autumn were like OMG!! so him and joe are all laughin and he throws the dick @ me. Yea so the fucking idiot stuck the choco. dick in his pants and it looked like he didnt zip up his fly...man hes dumb...i got a pic of it too haha i'll post it when its developed. heh crazy fucks.
Anyway, this summer is going good except for the fact that its been cold and raining, and not really sunny. I reAlly wanna go to Newport again and Block Island before summer is over. i think that would be fun...
Eh this sucks that the Newport soco concert and 4th of july has already passed...i miss those days! The concert and meeting Andrew was the best part of my summer, and 4th of july was just O-so-memorable.
K im out for now...leave a comment :D
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Well i can begin by saying 4th of july was fucking *insane* ok heres the nite lmao:
At about 5pm Becca,sara,kassie,joe and my bro show up @ my house. SO we're all just havin a drink, fuckin around and whatnot. so about an hour later this girl kerri and her b/f Don show up... everything's all cool until we go to watch the fireworks...
Joe and my bro get in joes car as me n tha girls walk to them. We get down the the baseball field and there was mad guys down there with a keg (all guys i graduated with) so it was cool, Me,sara and kass were all sittin on joes car, with just a lil buzz goin, and we look over and fuckin this kid chris and some of his boyz were smokin crack..lmao yes seriously. ok so Don proceeds to get smashed @ the keg...
Fireworks are over, and me n the girls and my bro are walkin back to my house. Joey pulls up on the side of us with this kid Ronnie and they are yellin for my bro to climb on top of the car (btw my bro was shittfaced) so, he gets on the car as im trying to pull him off. Well he gets on the roof and joe fuckin pulls a break stand and screws up the road with my brother on the roof.
We get to the top of the road, as my bro,ryan and joe are "having words" with some lady in a jeep. Joe tells her to get fucked...and she calls the cops..
Cops arrive, joe parks his car and took off into the woods, as my bro goes an hides..sara,becca, kassie and i go into the house as their are 8 cop cars outside (it looked like a murder scene i swear lol) so the cops come to the door,and we tell them we didnt see a thing.
Me and the girls take off and go to cumby's for cigarettes and charleston chews. We get back and becca basically chewed my bro a new asshole lmao cuz he was being such an idiot and lying to us. We go into the back yard and Don was passed out...but got back up and kept mumbling that he was 1.a gangsta, 2.that he was hilarious,3. "do you know who I AM?" 4.that he'g going to rob a bank...
So don falls over a million times, his girlfriend clubed him in the nose 5 times with an ear of corn,kicked him,choked him..well he wouldnt shut up and was mouthing off to all of us...
So it was beatdown time,he was in everyone's face, and joe took the initiative to punch him in the face a few times, Don fell on the ground,started to attack his leg as joe beat the fuck out of him..as this is happenin, ryan and I are just watchin it like it was on tv or somthin..also at this time, Johnny just happens to show up out of nowhere and decides hes sleeping over...
My dad had enough so he took Don home (by this time it was like 2am)and sara,kass,becca and rick go into a tent to sleep, ryan leaves and johnny and i go in the house to go to bed...
hah yeah so Um, i left out tons of small details, you would have had to be there to appreciate and understand it all, but needless to say the night was ridiclious and just FUCKED. k im out..peAce...<3
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| Happy 4th of July eve, fuckers |
[03 Jul 2004|10:43pm] |
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So im in a pretty bitchy mood at the moment. Probably because fuckidty fuck fucker really got me mad today. That fuckin kid really knows how to get me pissed...whatever...he's queeah. Anyway, the fireworks look pretty im just lookin at them out my window, and every time theres a loud one i just about have a heartattack cuz i think at any moment im about to be shot. sOooo tomorrow's 4th of july...cant wait. Every year it gets better, the parties down here are just crazy. Last year was awsome, i love all the guys my bro invites over ;). The year before that was just...priceless...with the convertible truck ride with me n my friends in the pick-up part with a pool filled with water and bubbles with us in our bathing suits with our champagne, as joey drives us all around. Then onto the fireworks and the guys lightin the porto-johns up with fireworks then tipping them over. and not to forget the best part of the nite: the massive fight, the cops coming and almost busting me n my friends and all of us hiding behind trees, some1's lost tooth in the road and the neighbor having a heartattack cuz eric threw her into a bush...lmao litteraly she DID have a heartattack. ahhh what memories haha. I can only hope that tomorrow will be just as memorable. SO i really cant get Andrew off my mind...hes ALL i think about "he keeps me up at nite" lmao right Katie? yea so Katie and I have BIG major plans for Andrew, bob,josh,Howie and Kenny ;). The dream orgy will be in the next post i swear. haha Katie and I are a lil crazy, but hey w/e. I just really need to be with Andrew...seriously..its just nessecary. Now im depressed, i REALLY miss Andrew and the Newport concert ::tear::: thats ok tho cuz i get to see him in August ;). K well im outie for now...<3 ~Jess
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| I MET ANDREW MUTHA FUCKKKAAAA |
[30 Jun 2004|11:54pm] |
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OMFG CAN I JUST BEING MY SAYIN THAT I *FUCKING* MET ANDREW OF SOMETHING CORPORATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! OMG I GOT HIS AUTOGRAPH,SHOOK HIS HAND,TOUCHED HIS HAIR...AND HELD A CONVERSATION WITH HIM!! OMG U HAVE *NO* IDEA HOW BIG THIS IS TO ME HOLY SHITT. Ok i am EXTREMELY TIRED AND WORN OUT BUT HERES MY NITE:
Jill and jp pick me up, we go to jens then pick up amber. we get to Newport (which is BeeUtiful!) stand in line, wait around then finally get in.
We sit down and have AMAZING SEATS 6th from the stage like omfg i could see my andrew perfectly :D so the guys FINALLY go on and thats when i just lost it.. GAAAHHHH OMG I <3 THEM!!! holy shitt when andrew began playing 'fall' that was it for me...omg hes so sexxy and when he says "i kiss ur neck, i feel u breathing on my shoulder" O*M*G*.they played an absoltuly amazing amazing show,the place was going *crazy* i was jumpin all around like a mofo heehee... explaining of this nite does not do justice of just how fucking good it was. So i met the wonderful Katie :D who had the hook up on where the guys were gonna be after...and of course i got to meet them (thanks katie!)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! i ACTUALLY talked to andrew...and lets just say our convo was pretty damn good too ;). OMG I STILL AM IN SHOCK!!
so hes by far *the* coolest guy ever...
i bought 2 t-shirts...yea no im just rambling lmao ok well im WAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY to excited to be typin away soOoO yeah!!!! EEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
<3333333 ANDREW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[29 Jun 2004|09:06pm] |
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Ok well I fucking am real pissed off at the moment. I am Suposed to be going to the soco concert tomorrow but my 'friend' wont fucking answer her god damn mother fucking phone so how the fuck should i know whats going on? hmm let me just sit @ home ready all day until they decide or decide NOT to pick me up. What fucking ever seriously i have been looking forward to this for a long looog time, they're my favorite band and i have no other ride but them...im not about to drive to newport by myself. wow this is seriously so fucked, its like the highlight of my summer and all ive been looking forward to since april :-/. Well all i can say is that if those fuckers blow me off i will find a ride there and i wish only bad shitt happen to them...w/e what comes around goes around. Also if they blow me off, they will be happily recieving a bitching, a gulit trip and a slap in the face. Im am not fuckin around, this concert means too much to me for some fuckin idiot to spoil it for me. Well thats all for now looks like i'll post more later.
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